Not My Will, But Yours

I am a self-proclaimed control freak.  I like when things feel "orderly" and controlled.  I am also a christian and believe fully that God's plan is always perfect.  Sometimes my trusting in God's plan and need for control and order collide and that always stings a little.  Today is one of those days.

Because I love Jesus I fully believe in his words from Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans that I have for you, They are plans for good to give you a hope and a future.  I believe those words fully even when things on this side of heaven do not always make sense. 

So on days like today when I am thrown a huge curve ball that I never saw coming, instead of throwing myself on the floor and throwing a tantrum, my faith quietly whispers to me to  trust.  God has and will continue to work things for His good even if it hurts a little in the moment. 

Parenting David has certainly shown me that we can be thrown some pretty vicious and fast curve balls called Down Syndrome and Cancer and still thrive.  He has proven that His plan is always perfect and that He is trustworthy.  So on days like today I just have to remember that it is not my will, but Yours dear Jesus. 

Weekend Wrapup

The good news on this Sunday night is that this guy is finally feeling better!  He made it all day at school on Friday and this weekend his appetite and energy level are returning.  Here is our Rockstar chilling out with his headphones and Ipad listening to some tunes.

This picture for some reason makes me belly laugh.  He is the funniest child!  Tonight at dinner he picked up his banana that he was eating and put it to his ear and said "hello, hey honey what's up?" He is such a  nut!

Yesterday we loaded up and headed to Bristol for the first travel ball game of the season.  If you look really hard you will see one little tiny hint of spring with some flowers trying to come up.  Spring has been a long time coming this year, but we did enjoy some sunshine yesterday at the game.

This team had a rough day of play with two losses but they came out to play today.  Thankfully our team is full of great guys and great coaches that make it a fun experience.  Baseball is NOT my favorite at all, but if one of my kids love it then I will be there with bells on!  Kyle loves it and loves the competition and social time. 

Our team hit the ball really well this weekend despite the losses.  Here is Kyle on first base.  Base running makes me nervous!!! 

Hope and David were in heaven with a playground close to the fields. 

Mike spent a good part of the day on the phone dealing with a stressful work situation.  At the end of the day God had worked it out for the good so he did get to have a little fun with us!  It frustrates me sometimes that he does not have a job that he can "turn off" but he is using his gifts and talents from God to bless lots and lots of children with a great education.  

 

My cute little ball player:)

 

It is obvious due to my stress level that a scan is coming up soon.  That dark cloud of doubt and panic tried to rear its ugly head this weekend.  I know our God is able to handle all my fears and all my nerves and I am so thankful that I can pour out my heart to Him.  I also think having David so sick last week also triggered a lot of chemo memories where he was that sick for  a long time and those hard memories were not fun to deal with.  Sadly cancer will always be part of our lives-I am just thankful that Jesus plays a bigger role in our lives:)  Have a great week!

Sicky Buddy

This week has been a rough one for our Rock Star.  He been battling some nasty tummy bug since early Tuesday morning.  Tummy bugs are terrible but they especially make us nervous for David and his solo kidney.  He still has a dialy intake goal of 60-70 ounces of fluid daily to keep his kidney healthy and happy.  When he is sick this is especially important. 

 

He has been so sick and sleepy that he has had a hard time getting all of his fluids in each day.  I have enjoyed my snuggle time with him and I think I am maxed out on the Little Mermaid.  I love Ariel and all, but I am done now with that movie.   

I was out of preschool Wednesday when we typically have music time with Mr. Bryan.  The children are working on one of my favorite songs ever and they sent us this precious little video to say get well David!  Do I not have the BEST job ever?  I also love their sweet voices and southern accents.  Hope is on the second row in the sparkly Minnie Mouse Dress:)  I know I am blessed to work in a church setting, but this week I have felt especially blessed with my co-teachers and the church staff:) 



Here is the official video of the song that our preschoolers are working on. We sang this song at our "Lent Launch" services last week.  It is so beautiful!  I think Matt Redmen would approve of how well our preschoolers are singing his song-even with their sweet southern accents. 

Speaking of southern accents,  a group of my preschoolers were talking about "candles" the other day during snack time.  I thought it was cute and wondered if one of their moms was a Scentsy consultants or something that these girls were so into their "candles."  It hit me later when they were talking about the game Frozen on their "candles" that they were referring to their Kindles but their sweet,southwest  Virginia accents made it sound like candles.  It gave us a little chuckle at school:)